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Friday, March 31, 2006
Sunday, March 26, 2006
without you near
its starting to get lonely and dark. I can't see much further. Where do you go from here.
How can you sit there watching, talking, to someone you think is me?
You think I'll fly, run, jump, when I'm just a rock embedded in a clump of weeds.
Yet I'm slowly being ground into sand. by the consistent pelting of questions. thoughts. ideas.
I just need to sit here for a while. I don't want to roll, I'll gather moss and disappear.
the others are everywhere. fluttering around. and my distance grows further and further with every flap.
its getting lonely, but its where i'd rather be.
wear down till there's nothing left. and be blown away away by the wind.
How can you sit there watching, talking, to someone you think is me?
You think I'll fly, run, jump, when I'm just a rock embedded in a clump of weeds.
Yet I'm slowly being ground into sand. by the consistent pelting of questions. thoughts. ideas.
I just need to sit here for a while. I don't want to roll, I'll gather moss and disappear.
the others are everywhere. fluttering around. and my distance grows further and further with every flap.
its getting lonely, but its where i'd rather be.
wear down till there's nothing left. and be blown away away by the wind.
Tuesday, March 07, 2006
Revisited: Leaving on a jet plane
Don't know when I'll be back again.
Actually, turns out I'll be back on the 8th of March 2006.
Actually, turns out I'll be back on the 8th of March 2006.
Wednesday, February 22, 2006
How to survive being thrown out of the car
As I was cleaning the interior of my car today, I decided to clean the door sill while still perched in the driver's seat. Yes, I know I could've stepped out of the car and kneeled down next to the door to do it, but I was just too lazy and the nappa leather seats were just too comfy! Well, it cost me because somehow, I managed to find myself in an awkward and precarious position and ended up landing on my face and elbows on the cold hard concrete. It hurt. Fortunately there was no one around and I scrambled back to my feet and nursed my sore and skinned elbows.
And then I thought to myself, "Gosh, falling out of a stationary car hurts a lot! How do you ever survive falling out of a moving car?" Therefore in order to protect the interests of all the motorists and passengers reading my blog, I went ahead to do some research and here's what I found.
Prior to actually getting thrown out of the car, it's best to prepare on your own. Go into a quiet room and spin in circles looking down at the floor and up at the ceiling in order to get ready for the spin that you'll get thrown into once you hit the floor. Then, take yourself to your nearest slabs of nice, clean concrete and practise throwing yourself elbow first on the floor. This way you can mentally prepare for the impact, so it's not a shock when it happens. Obviously you've got to make sure you have some decent protective padding on first.
Once you've done the initial preparation, you need to find a good smooth surface to land on. If the surface is rough, there's a very high chance you will tear your clothing and really injure yourself. The car itself needs to have a wide door and, more importantly, a reliable driver that you can trust.
Recce the road and practise opening and closing the door of the car
Before actually going ahead with the jump, drive along the road a couple of times, opening the door and checking for the best spot to land on. Shout at the point where you're going to jump, so everyone around knows where and when it's going to happen. Once you've done the initial preparation, you need to find a good smooth surface to land on.
Try to land elbow first. This will reduce the shock of the impact.
Good padding is essential. Ideally, your whole body will be covered, preferably starting with a pair of jeans and a decent jacket. Underneath that, you'll need padding on your elbows and knees - basically every bony bit of your body needs protection. When it comes to being kicked out of the door, think of how a pen or pencil rolls. That's what you have to emulate. Throw yourself out, leading with your shoulder or arm. If you lead with your hand, you'll tear all of your skin and you won't complete the roll properly.
Wear plenty of padding and let the momentum carry you until you stop.
Your arm should contact the surface and throw you into the spin. The hardest part is actually stopping once you've begun the whole thing. You have to keep going, let your energy just carry you and slide along. Once you've accomplished that, you can stand up, dust yourself off and live to tell the tale.
Re-arrange clothes, comb hair and repeat if necessary.
And then I thought to myself, "Gosh, falling out of a stationary car hurts a lot! How do you ever survive falling out of a moving car?" Therefore in order to protect the interests of all the motorists and passengers reading my blog, I went ahead to do some research and here's what I found.
Prior to actually getting thrown out of the car, it's best to prepare on your own. Go into a quiet room and spin in circles looking down at the floor and up at the ceiling in order to get ready for the spin that you'll get thrown into once you hit the floor. Then, take yourself to your nearest slabs of nice, clean concrete and practise throwing yourself elbow first on the floor. This way you can mentally prepare for the impact, so it's not a shock when it happens. Obviously you've got to make sure you have some decent protective padding on first.
Once you've done the initial preparation, you need to find a good smooth surface to land on. If the surface is rough, there's a very high chance you will tear your clothing and really injure yourself. The car itself needs to have a wide door and, more importantly, a reliable driver that you can trust.
Recce the road and practise opening and closing the door of the carBefore actually going ahead with the jump, drive along the road a couple of times, opening the door and checking for the best spot to land on. Shout at the point where you're going to jump, so everyone around knows where and when it's going to happen. Once you've done the initial preparation, you need to find a good smooth surface to land on.
Try to land elbow first. This will reduce the shock of the impact. Good padding is essential. Ideally, your whole body will be covered, preferably starting with a pair of jeans and a decent jacket. Underneath that, you'll need padding on your elbows and knees - basically every bony bit of your body needs protection. When it comes to being kicked out of the door, think of how a pen or pencil rolls. That's what you have to emulate. Throw yourself out, leading with your shoulder or arm. If you lead with your hand, you'll tear all of your skin and you won't complete the roll properly.
Wear plenty of padding and let the momentum carry you until you stop. Your arm should contact the surface and throw you into the spin. The hardest part is actually stopping once you've begun the whole thing. You have to keep going, let your energy just carry you and slide along. Once you've accomplished that, you can stand up, dust yourself off and live to tell the tale.
Re-arrange clothes, comb hair and repeat if necessary.
Sunday, February 12, 2006
blogger's blog block
As I sit on my bean bag, lazily strumming my guitar, wondering what exactly is happening with my life right now, I've come to realise that events of late are really messing up my vibe. Its cramping my style and I have to break out of it. You'd think that after living 26 years of life, you'd be able to master it and yet somehow, I still find myself grappling with situations day to day, barely surviving. Here's a messy jumble of thoughts thats going through my head right now.
PR in Melbourne? Or head home to Singapore and get a job there? What a tuffy. this is like a life altering multi shake up decision to make. I'm still looking at the piece of paper with the pros and cons of each, and its still a mind boggle for me.
Guarding your heart? what does that mean? surpressing your feelings and not letting it develop any fondess or attraction to someone?
Why are there 3 chinamen living in the house next door, and not 3 exotic european supermodels on an exchange program? And why would the chinaman leave his trash bin in the middle of the driveway? doesn't he know the driveway is there coz there are cars moving in and out?!
different people live according to different standards and rules, and when you find yourself drawing closer to them, you gotta be careful to know what those rules and expectation are if not you're gonna ge burned. better still. don't draw close to anyone at all! go figure.
I love writing letters. but my handwriting has changed. again.
should i restring my guitar? i feel so lazy.
Even good friends and leaders can fail you and mess you up. the only person you can trust totally is yourself, but i'm not too sure about that too.
Its late and i should be getting back to bed.
PR in Melbourne? Or head home to Singapore and get a job there? What a tuffy. this is like a life altering multi shake up decision to make. I'm still looking at the piece of paper with the pros and cons of each, and its still a mind boggle for me.
Guarding your heart? what does that mean? surpressing your feelings and not letting it develop any fondess or attraction to someone?
Why are there 3 chinamen living in the house next door, and not 3 exotic european supermodels on an exchange program? And why would the chinaman leave his trash bin in the middle of the driveway? doesn't he know the driveway is there coz there are cars moving in and out?!
different people live according to different standards and rules, and when you find yourself drawing closer to them, you gotta be careful to know what those rules and expectation are if not you're gonna ge burned. better still. don't draw close to anyone at all! go figure.
I love writing letters. but my handwriting has changed. again.
should i restring my guitar? i feel so lazy.
Even good friends and leaders can fail you and mess you up. the only person you can trust totally is yourself, but i'm not too sure about that too.
Its late and i should be getting back to bed.
Wednesday, February 08, 2006
Why does housework have to suck?
This song really rocks. Lights and sounds by yellowcard. In this day and age where the radio waves are clogged up with an overdose of hip hop R&B and boy bands returning from the dead, an energetic pumping rock song like this is a gem. And its also this type of song thats helping me get through my chores without pulling my hair out and throwing myself through the window. Its the anthem and soundtrack of my life right now and it chases away the misery of my current situation. I actually jump around and try to imagine I'm out there wakeboarding or snowboarding instead of being indoors with a broom and sweeping. nice.
Sigh, those were good times....
Sigh, those were good times....
Home is where the heart is
Gosh, its barely been a day since I got back to Melbourne and already I'm toying with the idea of packing up to return to Singapore for good. Its been an overwhelming jumble of errands and chores to finish and frankly, I'm sick of it. The house is in a mess and its dusty and there are cobwebs. There's so much laundry to do and to hang out. My car is covered under a layer of filth. hmmm, well I hope its my car under there..... oh and I need to send it for servicing too. I gotta settle my PR application and meet the migration lawyer. I have to work out my finances and decide how I'm gonna budget to survive. ARGH.
I miss home. My family, friends, loved ones. My dog. the comfort and familiarity of everything. Mom and Dad, you guys better take care of your health ok? I love you guys. my family rocks.
I miss home. My family, friends, loved ones. My dog. the comfort and familiarity of everything. Mom and Dad, you guys better take care of your health ok? I love you guys. my family rocks.
Monday, February 06, 2006
Wednesday, February 01, 2006
morning call
I've been getting a regular visitor lately. Its a mynah. This chirpy little bird will land itself on my window sill and chirp at the top of its lungs every morning. Its as if its trying to wake me up from my slumber and telling me to get my butt off the bed and go do something productive. After a while, it gets to me and I will jump out of bed. Sometimes, I think its telling me something. and when I Listen carefully, I can almost make out a pattern.
(wake up sleepy head, the sun is out to play
you don't have much time left, you're wasting most of the day
in no time you'll be flying to Australia, the land of cows and hay
and you'll miss singapore so much,
you'd wish you spent your time in a better way)
And at this point I usually go into a panic attack coz I've imagined a bird chirping a rhyme to me. but more so than that, I get worried coz its true. I am leaving Singapore in less than a week and honestly, I am dreading it. There's so many things I've grown attached to here, so many things I don't want to leave behind. And yes, by sleeping my time away here, I'm not making good use of it. argh.
(wake up sleepy head, the sun is out to play
you don't have much time left, you're wasting most of the day
in no time you'll be flying to Australia, the land of cows and hay
and you'll miss singapore so much,
you'd wish you spent your time in a better way)
And at this point I usually go into a panic attack coz I've imagined a bird chirping a rhyme to me. but more so than that, I get worried coz its true. I am leaving Singapore in less than a week and honestly, I am dreading it. There's so many things I've grown attached to here, so many things I don't want to leave behind. And yes, by sleeping my time away here, I'm not making good use of it. argh.
Monday, January 23, 2006
sun-kissed
Hey ya'll!
I've over done it this time. I went wakeboarding for almost 4 hours and under the intense sun without sun block. This wouldn't have been a problem a few years back when I'd be under the sun almost everyday but after being in Melbourne for the past two and a half years, my skin has become sissy and white. I'm now suffering from a bad case of sun burn. My torso and face is a bright tomato red and every move I make hurts. I can't move around when I sleep and wearing a T shirt is a painful experience.
Half a tube of Aloe Vera gel later and I'm still trying to cool my skin down. Sigh. Anyone got any suggestions for a quick fix?
I've over done it this time. I went wakeboarding for almost 4 hours and under the intense sun without sun block. This wouldn't have been a problem a few years back when I'd be under the sun almost everyday but after being in Melbourne for the past two and a half years, my skin has become sissy and white. I'm now suffering from a bad case of sun burn. My torso and face is a bright tomato red and every move I make hurts. I can't move around when I sleep and wearing a T shirt is a painful experience.
Half a tube of Aloe Vera gel later and I'm still trying to cool my skin down. Sigh. Anyone got any suggestions for a quick fix?
Wednesday, January 18, 2006
maunderings of a recovering fluer
So there I was, sniffling and wheezing my nose off, watching re-runs of some old episode of the Gilmore girls. Did you know that channel 5 plays re-runs in the afternoons nowadays? Sure beats the crap out of watching that dumb "days of our lives" which never made any sense to me. The actors in that show always talked like they were living in some high altitude housing establishment where the air was so thin they had to take a deep breath before every word. *HEAVE, "Penelope, " *INHALE, "I Love...." *INHALE "butter cookies". Bizarre.
So as I was saying, I was wallowing in fluish misery and watching the gilmore girls when suddenly, it hit me. A sheer stroke of brilliance. Yes, the folded cardboard box from the new brillance TV set came crashing down on me and squashed me before i could even release one of my manly high pitch shrieks. The steamy cup of jasmine green tea in my hands that was supposed to bring me comfort only provided agony as it spilled onto my chest and trickled down to my urmmmm, lets just say, non-green-tea appreciating area.
At this point I heard laughter. Laughter that was distinctively female. The gilmore girls were laughing on TV, and very heartily as well. I didn't know what they were laughing at but it sure felt like it was me. The poor guy who was suffering from the flu, got crushed by folded cardboard boxes and spilled fragrant green tea on his own nuts, in his own room, a supposedly safe-haven from the evils of the world.
I then decided to take the dog out for a walk. Some fresh air would do me good.
So as I was saying, I was wallowing in fluish misery and watching the gilmore girls when suddenly, it hit me. A sheer stroke of brilliance. Yes, the folded cardboard box from the new brillance TV set came crashing down on me and squashed me before i could even release one of my manly high pitch shrieks. The steamy cup of jasmine green tea in my hands that was supposed to bring me comfort only provided agony as it spilled onto my chest and trickled down to my urmmmm, lets just say, non-green-tea appreciating area.
At this point I heard laughter. Laughter that was distinctively female. The gilmore girls were laughing on TV, and very heartily as well. I didn't know what they were laughing at but it sure felt like it was me. The poor guy who was suffering from the flu, got crushed by folded cardboard boxes and spilled fragrant green tea on his own nuts, in his own room, a supposedly safe-haven from the evils of the world.
I then decided to take the dog out for a walk. Some fresh air would do me good.
Saturday, January 14, 2006
D is sick
Argh, the flu bug has got me. How could this have happened? Sigh there are just too many people crammed into the same space at any given moment I tell ya. Thats Singapore. Gross. It makes it so easy for the virus to jump from one person to another like fleas jumping from dog to dog.
It doesn't help that I've been sleeping weird hours and not excerising much too. My resistance to the pesky bug must be at an all time low. I seldom get sick! What a sucky feeling. The fever kept me tossing and turning last night and my brain was getting fried! I kept thinking about how to convert poker chips into money! how random and totally whack is that?? now I've got a scratchy throat and a drippy nose. and my joints are achy too. Sigh.
You guys better take care of yourself. Eat more fruits and drink heaps of water! I'll be back in no time. AAAHHHHCCCHHHHHHHOOOOOOOOOOO!
It doesn't help that I've been sleeping weird hours and not excerising much too. My resistance to the pesky bug must be at an all time low. I seldom get sick! What a sucky feeling. The fever kept me tossing and turning last night and my brain was getting fried! I kept thinking about how to convert poker chips into money! how random and totally whack is that?? now I've got a scratchy throat and a drippy nose. and my joints are achy too. Sigh.
You guys better take care of yourself. Eat more fruits and drink heaps of water! I'll be back in no time. AAAHHHHCCCHHHHHHHOOOOOOOOOOO!
Tuesday, January 10, 2006
WOT?
what a confusing week.
Jialing dumped a whole truckload of pictures on me and rattled off about some growing up story about Adrian and her and I'm supposed to come up with some amazing slideshow thingy for her wedding. *blink blink*
Played taboo with Sharon's Singapore cell group and apparently you get chicken pox once a year and guys love to put hair on their head. *scratches head*
Watched "the Dark" expecting to be freaked out of my pants. Its been a while since I saw a good horror flick, but I walked out of the theatre feeling confused and more bored than I was before the show. *blink blink*
I'm getting more and more reluctant to leave Singapore to return to Melbourne. Do I really want to live and work there? *blink blink*
What am I gonna do with my life? Shouldn't I have developed some sort of ambition by now? Going to uni definately didn't provide any hints. *scratch*
When am I going wakeboarding again and with who? *blink blink*
Taxi, LOTR and other misc DVD marathons? Do i have the time? *blink*
I'm leaving on the 7th of FEB?? Thats not much time left here!!! I haven't had a decent plate of chicken rice or nasi lemak yet! *ARGH*
Jialing dumped a whole truckload of pictures on me and rattled off about some growing up story about Adrian and her and I'm supposed to come up with some amazing slideshow thingy for her wedding. *blink blink*
Played taboo with Sharon's Singapore cell group and apparently you get chicken pox once a year and guys love to put hair on their head. *scratches head*
Watched "the Dark" expecting to be freaked out of my pants. Its been a while since I saw a good horror flick, but I walked out of the theatre feeling confused and more bored than I was before the show. *blink blink*
I'm getting more and more reluctant to leave Singapore to return to Melbourne. Do I really want to live and work there? *blink blink*
What am I gonna do with my life? Shouldn't I have developed some sort of ambition by now? Going to uni definately didn't provide any hints. *scratch*
When am I going wakeboarding again and with who? *blink blink*
Taxi, LOTR and other misc DVD marathons? Do i have the time? *blink*
I'm leaving on the 7th of FEB?? Thats not much time left here!!! I haven't had a decent plate of chicken rice or nasi lemak yet! *ARGH*
Tuesday, January 03, 2006
Action packed
Righto! Enough of wordy, thought heavy entries. Let's get down to some updates of what I've been up to and some visuals! We need PICTURES!
I guess the highlight of Christmas in 2005 must've been my pajama party. After a mad rush to different places and meeting many faces, I finally settled down at the Merchant Court hotel for the last christmas stop. There, I kicked off my shoes, got into my PJs and got cosy with my best bunch of buddies where we laughed, sang and made merry. Oh and we had Cranium too.
but the fun really upped a notch on the last 3 days of 2005 when I went wakeboarding! First was with Sharon, Amanda and Louis. It was a pleasure introducing them to the sport and a definite delight when they could all stand and successfully wakeboard. 2 days later, I went with Melissa, Mark, Geok and Mun and we had a blast too. It was an awesome feeling riding the boat under the big open sky and the rush of the wind as you wakeboard.
So what better way to spend the new year than being with your friends? Though I would've preferred not having to rush around to meet different friends at different places, ultimately, I had a great time with some of my closest friends as we transited from 2005 into 2006. The highlight of the moment was catching the flares and fireworks go off at multiple locations, but being able to enjoy it from the same spot. Priceless. Too bad I didn't have my camera with me then.
BUT! I did have my camera when we were all huddled into this place called settler's cafe where you can pig out on various finger foods and play all sorts of games from all over the world. There are so many games in this place that you've never heard of in your life. However, besides the fun of the board games and having your friends there with you, what I really enjoyed was watching the "game masters" trying to explain to you how a game is played, and then the blank look on their faces when you correct them (after reading the rules hur hur hur....)
Its gonna be a great year ahead so enjoy it everyone! Most importantly, inject a huge dose of fun into your life, be happy and let your friends know how important they are! Later~
I guess the highlight of Christmas in 2005 must've been my pajama party. After a mad rush to different places and meeting many faces, I finally settled down at the Merchant Court hotel for the last christmas stop. There, I kicked off my shoes, got into my PJs and got cosy with my best bunch of buddies where we laughed, sang and made merry. Oh and we had Cranium too.
but the fun really upped a notch on the last 3 days of 2005 when I went wakeboarding! First was with Sharon, Amanda and Louis. It was a pleasure introducing them to the sport and a definite delight when they could all stand and successfully wakeboard. 2 days later, I went with Melissa, Mark, Geok and Mun and we had a blast too. It was an awesome feeling riding the boat under the big open sky and the rush of the wind as you wakeboard.
So what better way to spend the new year than being with your friends? Though I would've preferred not having to rush around to meet different friends at different places, ultimately, I had a great time with some of my closest friends as we transited from 2005 into 2006. The highlight of the moment was catching the flares and fireworks go off at multiple locations, but being able to enjoy it from the same spot. Priceless. Too bad I didn't have my camera with me then.
BUT! I did have my camera when we were all huddled into this place called settler's cafe where you can pig out on various finger foods and play all sorts of games from all over the world. There are so many games in this place that you've never heard of in your life. However, besides the fun of the board games and having your friends there with you, what I really enjoyed was watching the "game masters" trying to explain to you how a game is played, and then the blank look on their faces when you correct them (after reading the rules hur hur hur....)
Its gonna be a great year ahead so enjoy it everyone! Most importantly, inject a huge dose of fun into your life, be happy and let your friends know how important they are! Later~
Sunday, January 01, 2006
Remember Lot's wife
At the blink of an eye, 2006 has arrived. As I was driving home alone along the ECP after rushing around to numerous places and dropping friends off, I decided to put the car into slow cruise control and reflect on what 2005 has meant for me.
For starters, I got into a great church where I made a great new bunch of friends. Some of them have left deep impressions in my life and I know that they're friends for life. I also drew closer to God in the process. Amen!
I graduated and wrapped up the acedemic chapter of my life. I got my Engineering degree. With honors too! I had a shaky start and thank God I've made it and ended strong. Again, I made a great bunch of friends from Monash and I'll never forget the times we had together.
I've stepped up a few notches in my passion for snowboarding and what an amazing winter i had in 2005! At least I didn't become boring and dormant in Australia. I managed to introduce more people to the amazing sport of wakeboarding in the last 3 days of 2005! And I wakeboarded properly as well and got some decent water time. I feel so healthy now. haha.
but as with any other year, its never ever smooth sailing. I've been thrown into a confusing and ambiguous stage of my life since i graduated and I also ended a turbulent relationship.
and then I remembered what I heard in church on new year's eve. Lot's wife turned into a pillar of salt when she looked back at the destruction of Sodom. God never meant for us to look back. Don't look back at your past sins that have been forgiven, don't look back at the hurt you were dealt, don't look back at past victories and be contented. and don't look back at one more thing but I cannot remember (I really should bring a notebook to church from now on!). But its ok, coz pastor prayed for a blessing of forgetfulness for us to forget all the bad things in our lives. (maybe it was too effective and made me forget the 4th thing that you shouldn't look back on?)
So yeah! 2006 is looking good for me. its gonna be an awesome year and I'm looking up to God for guidance and i'm looking forward to the adventures that await me! HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE AND HAVE A SMASHING 2006!
For starters, I got into a great church where I made a great new bunch of friends. Some of them have left deep impressions in my life and I know that they're friends for life. I also drew closer to God in the process. Amen!
I graduated and wrapped up the acedemic chapter of my life. I got my Engineering degree. With honors too! I had a shaky start and thank God I've made it and ended strong. Again, I made a great bunch of friends from Monash and I'll never forget the times we had together.
I've stepped up a few notches in my passion for snowboarding and what an amazing winter i had in 2005! At least I didn't become boring and dormant in Australia. I managed to introduce more people to the amazing sport of wakeboarding in the last 3 days of 2005! And I wakeboarded properly as well and got some decent water time. I feel so healthy now. haha.
but as with any other year, its never ever smooth sailing. I've been thrown into a confusing and ambiguous stage of my life since i graduated and I also ended a turbulent relationship.
and then I remembered what I heard in church on new year's eve. Lot's wife turned into a pillar of salt when she looked back at the destruction of Sodom. God never meant for us to look back. Don't look back at your past sins that have been forgiven, don't look back at the hurt you were dealt, don't look back at past victories and be contented. and don't look back at one more thing but I cannot remember (I really should bring a notebook to church from now on!). But its ok, coz pastor prayed for a blessing of forgetfulness for us to forget all the bad things in our lives. (maybe it was too effective and made me forget the 4th thing that you shouldn't look back on?)
So yeah! 2006 is looking good for me. its gonna be an awesome year and I'm looking up to God for guidance and i'm looking forward to the adventures that await me! HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE AND HAVE A SMASHING 2006!
Monday, December 26, 2005
Everything I needed
What? Christmas is over already? Just like that? Hope you guys had a good one. This Christmas, I was hoping that it would be a quiet and peaceful one. Away from the yucky crowds and pollution of all sorts. but it was not to be. All my plans landed me in places where the people outnumbered the total number of trees in my housing estate. Even Church, the place where people seek peace and solace was jammed pack with people.
Though I've met many new faces and made many acquaintances this Christmas at various places and parties, at the end of it all, I'm glad that I have my friends that I can hang out with and be totally comfortable with. You know that such friends are for life when you return from Australia and when we meet, it feels like I never left at all. Thank you guys. I haven't laughed so hard in a long time or felt so happy in the company of people for a while.
now, tao huay at geylang beckons so i've gotta run! Enjoy the last few days of 2005 and may 2006 bring amazing experiences for ya'all!
Though I've met many new faces and made many acquaintances this Christmas at various places and parties, at the end of it all, I'm glad that I have my friends that I can hang out with and be totally comfortable with. You know that such friends are for life when you return from Australia and when we meet, it feels like I never left at all. Thank you guys. I haven't laughed so hard in a long time or felt so happy in the company of people for a while.
now, tao huay at geylang beckons so i've gotta run! Enjoy the last few days of 2005 and may 2006 bring amazing experiences for ya'all!
Friday, December 23, 2005
Merry Christmas Everyone.
I'm sitting in front of the computer again. I've got some candles lighted around my workstation and my jazzy christmas CD droning in the background. I'm still recovering from the eve of Christmas eve pajama party I had. And what better way to do that than to set my thoughts loose on the internet? hmmmmm.
Seeing the whole gang in their pajamas, goofing around and singing carols and drinking wine and playing games. It was weird. It was hilariously fun but definately weird. but you know what hit me? we've all grown old. we can't have the same kind of fun we did when we were 18 anymore. This party was an attempt to break out of our hardened shells of age. I wasn't able to. It didn't help that half the girls had glittery rocks on their fingers. That just reminds me that most of my friends are moving on to the next stage in adulthood while I've barely begun.
I've been through 26 Christmas's already, but I think I can only remember the second half of those. As a kid, it was always about going to grandma's house anticipating a feast and a truckload of presents. It was simple, but it did not have any impact in my life. but as you grow older, presents don't really matter anymore. Christmas becomes a time to spend with people that are dear to you. It becomes a time to reflect on the year's events and to establish your goals for the coming year. Christmas becomes a time to get connected back to the core of life.
I won't hide the fact that this christmas is gonna be a miserable one for me. The transition from being a uni student to a working adult with responsibilities is taking its toll on me. The stress of having to establish a plan to maintain the comfortable life that I am so accustomed to is wearing me out. Some call this quarter life crisis I think.
Breaking up with eunice didn't help either. I've failed in yet another relationship, and I've lost a long time friend in the process. Never date a friend if you're not ready to lose her/him. Is that true? seems to be. Its gonna be a lonely christmas this 2005. and no its not coz i'm all by myself. There's no lack of people to hang out with or places to go to. its just that I feel so detached from everything that no matter where I am, I still feel like there's no one around, no connections made. Everything is just a passing cloud. and i hate it.
Sigh, my cheery christmas entry has become long and depressing. Believe me I'm trying very hard to make this christmas work, but I still need a miracle to save this one. But don't mind me, make sure you guys go out and have a Blessed and Merry Christmas!
Seeing the whole gang in their pajamas, goofing around and singing carols and drinking wine and playing games. It was weird. It was hilariously fun but definately weird. but you know what hit me? we've all grown old. we can't have the same kind of fun we did when we were 18 anymore. This party was an attempt to break out of our hardened shells of age. I wasn't able to. It didn't help that half the girls had glittery rocks on their fingers. That just reminds me that most of my friends are moving on to the next stage in adulthood while I've barely begun.
I've been through 26 Christmas's already, but I think I can only remember the second half of those. As a kid, it was always about going to grandma's house anticipating a feast and a truckload of presents. It was simple, but it did not have any impact in my life. but as you grow older, presents don't really matter anymore. Christmas becomes a time to spend with people that are dear to you. It becomes a time to reflect on the year's events and to establish your goals for the coming year. Christmas becomes a time to get connected back to the core of life.
I won't hide the fact that this christmas is gonna be a miserable one for me. The transition from being a uni student to a working adult with responsibilities is taking its toll on me. The stress of having to establish a plan to maintain the comfortable life that I am so accustomed to is wearing me out. Some call this quarter life crisis I think.
Breaking up with eunice didn't help either. I've failed in yet another relationship, and I've lost a long time friend in the process. Never date a friend if you're not ready to lose her/him. Is that true? seems to be. Its gonna be a lonely christmas this 2005. and no its not coz i'm all by myself. There's no lack of people to hang out with or places to go to. its just that I feel so detached from everything that no matter where I am, I still feel like there's no one around, no connections made. Everything is just a passing cloud. and i hate it.
Sigh, my cheery christmas entry has become long and depressing. Believe me I'm trying very hard to make this christmas work, but I still need a miracle to save this one. But don't mind me, make sure you guys go out and have a Blessed and Merry Christmas!
Thursday, December 22, 2005
divine bovine
Holy Cow!~ This blog has been pretty dead hasn't it? no pictures. no comics. boring wordy posts. Well, it can't be helped. There's nothing happening you see. Well, at least nothing worth blogging about. I mean, why in the world would you want to read about where I've been going and what I've been eating and who I've been meeting and where I've been clubbing and what I've been watching (by the way, chronicles of Narnia is awesome!) etc etc.
Furthermore, I can't really hook up my camera to upload my pictures or create comics coz i'm stuck using this piece of crap stone age WINDOWS computer. What a pain. I don't even think I'll be able to change the song on my blog so you guys are gonna be stuck with the christmas song for a while.
I think my dog is getting cranky coz I come home at 4 every night and break her sleep when I open the door. righto. i've run out of things to type about. later~
Furthermore, I can't really hook up my camera to upload my pictures or create comics coz i'm stuck using this piece of crap stone age WINDOWS computer. What a pain. I don't even think I'll be able to change the song on my blog so you guys are gonna be stuck with the christmas song for a while.
I think my dog is getting cranky coz I come home at 4 every night and break her sleep when I open the door. righto. i've run out of things to type about. later~
Monday, December 19, 2005
Home sweet home
Hey Y'all!
I am HOME! I have landed in Singapore, the motherland. In the comfort of my home and family. The house is still pretty much the same except for some rearrangment in the furniture and heaps of junk in my room! My room became a makeshift storeroom while I was gone! ARGH. Oh and I have a dog now. Its a female husky called Amber. She's a cutie but a little too energetic I reckon. Oh and my sister's got her own car now. But besides that, everything's pretty much the way it was.
Now for the bad part. I went to Orchard Road today to hang out with Shane and Ash and to try to buy my secret Santa a present. I walked everywhere and I couldn't find anything suitable to buy. How frustrating. But you know whats worse? The crowd. Oh my God the crowd in town was so unbearably suffocating. I had to jostle through the crowd in the humid and warm climate. Bad combination.
Singlish. Its so amusing to listen to people around you. The familier accent. The familier tone. Singaporeans speak funny I tell ya. And even though it has deep roots and is unique to our culture, I dislike it. Its amusing and hilarious when you listen to some people speak. But its everywhere and there's no way you can hide from it in Singapore.
Another thing, where have all the pretty girls gone? We were having coffee at starbucks that was facing the main street and not one single female caught my eye. I resorted to looking at the cars that were stuck in a jam along orchard road. Its sad when the automobiles are more interesting than the girls.
Sigh, Singapore isn't looking up at the moment. Maybe I'm just still adjusting. Maybe I'm just grumpy coz of the climate and the lack of personal space when you go out. At least the food's still good. yum.
I am HOME! I have landed in Singapore, the motherland. In the comfort of my home and family. The house is still pretty much the same except for some rearrangment in the furniture and heaps of junk in my room! My room became a makeshift storeroom while I was gone! ARGH. Oh and I have a dog now. Its a female husky called Amber. She's a cutie but a little too energetic I reckon. Oh and my sister's got her own car now. But besides that, everything's pretty much the way it was.
Now for the bad part. I went to Orchard Road today to hang out with Shane and Ash and to try to buy my secret Santa a present. I walked everywhere and I couldn't find anything suitable to buy. How frustrating. But you know whats worse? The crowd. Oh my God the crowd in town was so unbearably suffocating. I had to jostle through the crowd in the humid and warm climate. Bad combination.
Singlish. Its so amusing to listen to people around you. The familier accent. The familier tone. Singaporeans speak funny I tell ya. And even though it has deep roots and is unique to our culture, I dislike it. Its amusing and hilarious when you listen to some people speak. But its everywhere and there's no way you can hide from it in Singapore.
Another thing, where have all the pretty girls gone? We were having coffee at starbucks that was facing the main street and not one single female caught my eye. I resorted to looking at the cars that were stuck in a jam along orchard road. Its sad when the automobiles are more interesting than the girls.
Sigh, Singapore isn't looking up at the moment. Maybe I'm just still adjusting. Maybe I'm just grumpy coz of the climate and the lack of personal space when you go out. At least the food's still good. yum.
Saturday, December 17, 2005
Spread the Christmas Cheer
Don't you just love Christmas? Personally, its my most absolute favourite holiday of the year. As a kid it was because of the presents and the candy but recently, it has come to mean much more than that. Its a time to enjoy the company of loved ones and to celebrate the birth of Jesus.
I just returned from an awesome Christmas service at City Life Church today. It was my last church service in Melbourne before I head on back to Singapore and it was definately a lovely memory to bring along. It totally charged up the festive spirit in me. That, along with the latest episodes of the O.C and Grey's anatomy that I downloaded yesterday (both the shows had Christmas themes you see) have really put me on a "Christmas High".
But you know what's the best thing I love about Christmas? There's a magical feeling in the air somehow. The air is fresher, stress seems to just melt away and the daily problems in life just disappear. You see the smiles on friends' faces and the joy and laughter that comes along with all the parties. No matter what problems you have, everything is put on hold for this moment as you soak in the festive goodness.
I've always dreamt of the perfect Christmas. Just me and someone special snuggling up under a warm blanket in a room with a fire place. Watching snow float down from the heavens through the glass windows. Slowly sipping hot chocolate as the soft christmas jazz drones out from the speakers. Magic. All I need now is for the right girl to come along. and I've come to realise that many people actually get depressed over the holidays becuase of this reason. but you know what? it doesn't have to be that way. Christmas should be enjoyed with friends and family. Lonliness isn't a part of the Christmas spirit. After all the parties, I love coming home, park the car in the driveway and step in the garden to take a deep breath of the chilly christmas night air, and then I thank God for all the wonderful things he's done for me and provided in my life. There will always be special or romantic people coming in and out of your life, but Christmas will always be there so my dream will come true one day.
So enjoy this jolly season and live it to the fullest! Merry Christmas everyone and God Bless!
I just returned from an awesome Christmas service at City Life Church today. It was my last church service in Melbourne before I head on back to Singapore and it was definately a lovely memory to bring along. It totally charged up the festive spirit in me. That, along with the latest episodes of the O.C and Grey's anatomy that I downloaded yesterday (both the shows had Christmas themes you see) have really put me on a "Christmas High".
But you know what's the best thing I love about Christmas? There's a magical feeling in the air somehow. The air is fresher, stress seems to just melt away and the daily problems in life just disappear. You see the smiles on friends' faces and the joy and laughter that comes along with all the parties. No matter what problems you have, everything is put on hold for this moment as you soak in the festive goodness.
I've always dreamt of the perfect Christmas. Just me and someone special snuggling up under a warm blanket in a room with a fire place. Watching snow float down from the heavens through the glass windows. Slowly sipping hot chocolate as the soft christmas jazz drones out from the speakers. Magic. All I need now is for the right girl to come along. and I've come to realise that many people actually get depressed over the holidays becuase of this reason. but you know what? it doesn't have to be that way. Christmas should be enjoyed with friends and family. Lonliness isn't a part of the Christmas spirit. After all the parties, I love coming home, park the car in the driveway and step in the garden to take a deep breath of the chilly christmas night air, and then I thank God for all the wonderful things he's done for me and provided in my life. There will always be special or romantic people coming in and out of your life, but Christmas will always be there so my dream will come true one day.
So enjoy this jolly season and live it to the fullest! Merry Christmas everyone and God Bless!
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